We are getting very close to Olivia's one year anniversary of being diagnosed. Doesn't seem like a big deal, right? Well it kinda is, it's a day to think about what if's and a day to think about how much our lifes have changed in a year. I'm a different person I know that much is for sure, Olivia is and will always be different, and our family as a whole has changed and will remain changed forever. Sounds so dramtic when I write it down, but you would have to live a day in my house to understand. Just last night Harrison was still hungry after afternoon snack, I ended up giving him a little something. Olivia came storming into the kitchen "You gave Harrsion something else, that's not fair, he already had something. I thought this whole family was going to eat like me". She went running out of the room crying, and slammed her bedroom door. Wow, I screwed up, or did I, I don't know I look at Harrsion he's all of 32 pounds and he could use a little more. But for her all she sees is someone getting something she can't have. It's like being on a diet, it's really hard not to cheat right? Well, she can't cheat, there is no room for error, there is no room for one more bite, or one more of anything outside of what is given and dosed for. It could be worse, I just have to teach her to be strong, to be stronger than I could ever imagine being! She's such an amazing little girl, I know the road we have ahead of us is long and difficult, but I'm determined to help her through it.
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