So I think the depression of the 9.0 is sinking in, I know it shouldn't be, but it is. I know it's okay, I know we're heading in the right direction, but dang.....9.0!!
It just sucks!! It sucks that she just can't eat when she's hungry, it sucks that we just can't say let's go get ice cream, it sucks that we spend so much of our family meal time weighing, measuring and discussing, it sucks that this is forever, it sucks that there is no day off....I could go on forever!! It just plain sucks!!
I'm blessed that she's here, I'm blessed that she can live with this disease, I'm blessed that she can still participate in everything all the other kids can, I'm blessed that she can walk and talk!! I'm blessed that she's here with me, that she's my daughter!!
So while I feel like complaining about this at the moment, it's okay!! I need to just vent and then put one foot in front of the other and keep moving on!! This is the life I have been given, it's not a terrible one by any means, I have a great husband and four great kids, and one little challenge to overcome daily...no biggie!! I think maybe I'm at complete peace with it, but then I think of her as a young adult and her doing it on her own, trying to have kids, trying to follow the strictness of food regimens and just coping with the everyday battles! I wish I could control this disease for her for the rest of her life, but I can't!
Now I'm off to make dinner..to measure and weigh :)
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