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I don't know what to say I'm so sick of this disease! I hate complaining on here all the time, but it's really my only therapy so bear with me!! I know it could be worse, I really, really do, and I thank God every day, every single day...but on the same hand it's really slowly sucking the life out of me. It's not all the things I have to do, I can handle any kind of task that will better her health or keep her healthy, it's the emotional impact of watching your child go through it!! I can't describe how it feels when she's sneaking food or watching other kids have what she can't, it slowly chips away at your heart, and let me tell you my heart is a mess right now!!

(I'm going to vent now)

It's eating dinner as a family and hating to let your other kids have anything extra because you know she can't. It's that she is ALWAYS hungry and there's not a dang thing I can do about it (insulin makes you hungry). It's the bruises on her arms, legs, butt, and stomach that bring tears to my eyes daily. It's feeling helpless. It's wanting so badly to make it better when I can't. It's worrying about things like her having babies, living on her own, drinking when she's older, being away from us, having seizures and all the crap that comes along with having Diabetes. It's wondering if Tim, me or one of our kids are a kidney match (not Harrison of course) so that if she desperately needs a kidney there's one. It's the thought of those beautiful blue eyes not being able to see.

I want her to feel normal, I want her to be healthy, I want her to be carefree like other kids can and not worry abouts carbs and serving sizes!!!

I NEED A DAMN CURE FOR THIS DISEASE!!!!!