A1C

So we went to kid clinic and I didn't cry my eyes out, mainly because I felt like throwing up the entire time I was there!!! So her A1C was 9.2 a little high, but with all she's been through the past couple of months and all I'll take it. Anytime she runs high ketones like she did with the stomach flu it affects her A1C, so it doesn't make me happy, but I'll take it!!! So I'm truly hoping to get her to the low 8's for her next visit, keep your fingers crossed!!! Ya never know what's going to happen but a number like 9.2 can't stay!!! Maybe we'll have to really push the pump with her if I can't get it down with the injections. I hate to do that because I really and truly feel like it's her body and her choice, but there might have to be some great reward she can't pass up to do it :) I don't mind bribing my kids, I'll say it...whatever it takes!!!! I've been chatting on a few "support" groups on facebook, more like a bunch of Mom's but it can be very supportive to know that others feel the same ways you feel and depressing to hear of any bad things that have happened to these kids. I'll admit I walk a very fine line of denial and reality, I try to forget all the bad things that can happen and live life as normal as possible as often as I can. It is always in the back of my head, but I try to keep it there!!!! And while I'm confessing it can be very hard to look at people with perfectly normal kids that don't take very good care of!!! Yes, the whole why me syndrome. Why Olivia....we don't smoke or do drugs or anything like that...ugh!!! There is no answer to why, it just is what it is!!

To all of you with healthy kids...enjoy and appreciate every day, I know I didn't do this enough!!! You just never know when your entire life is going to change!! I pray that none of you ever have to go through this, and I pray that Olivia won't have to go through this for the rest of her life!!! I'll have to get all geared up for my walk this year!! Hope you guys aren't too busy in September!!!