Kid Clinic

This Saturday we go to kid clinic at the Diabetes center, I'm nervous for this A1C!!! In the past three months Olivia has had ketones with the stomach flu and has now been running a fever for over a week and still isn't over strep!!! So this is a day for me that can either make you or break you. If it's high you come out of there feeling like a complete failure and like I've done my daughter a injustice!!! Then I go into the slight depression for a week or so, it's like a nice slap across my face of reality!! Yes your daughter does have diabetes and no matter how hard you try to live a normal life this is NEVER going to go away this is here to stay!!!! Now if for some crazy reason I got a lower number well that can just make my day!!!! But I don't think that's going to happen for me this time, not with her being so sick and it being winter (no exercise). So I'm bracing myself now for Saturday hopefully I won't cry all day, and I can say okay we'll do better and lets just move on from here and DO BETTER!!!! We'll see.

I talked to Olivia about getting a diabetes service dog and she's really onboard with that idea, she likes the thought of being able to go to friends houses more often (with her dog). I'm sure everyone will love to have Olivia and her dog over but o-well!!! Now I just have to hope I can get her a dog..Yikes...I'm hoping this will happen for her. I've filled out a few applications, but she is young and it is a TON of training you have to go through to get one of these dogs. Just today though Olivia was playing on the computer completely fine and I said why don't you test your sugar and see if your ready for a snack...she was 50. I'm sure this disease is not only taking years off her life but it's taking quite a few off mine as well!!!

So wish me luck on our three month visit and I'll post the o so frighting number!!!