To pump or not to pump???

This is the question I'm trying to figure out right now!! The pump appears to offer much better control over blood sugars and gives a little more freedom. That being said no one in this house likes the idea of my daughter being hooked up to a machine!! Ugh!! I just don't know, it breaks my heart to picture her in one of her cute little bikinis with a pump and tubing!!! Stupid right?? I don't know a part of me still thinks if she's not on a pump when she's off playing she looks like any other kid out there, this pump will put a huge "I have diabetes sticker on her forehead". I think I still live in some kind of denial, I don't want this to be her life so I don't think I have fully accepted it!! I don't expect anyone to understand this, because I don't really understand it myself!!! But all in all Olivia's health is the most important thing so I think we'll end up giving this pump thing a try. She's picked out a nice pink (one touch ping) pump, it has a remote control, submersible up to 12 feet for 24 hours, and has pink sites!!! Wow, trust me there will be many tears shed once I see her all hooked up, but I'm hoping that this little machine helps us keep her sugars in such better control that one day I will rejoice seeing her all hooked up!!! On another note I'm taking her up to U of M to meet with a pediatric endocrinologist, hopefully he can shed some light on some things and help us get her A1C's down!! Keep Olivia in your thoughts and prayers, and if your not too busy keep me in there too...God knows I need it...I think I'm a heart attack walking!! Be thankful for all those healthy kiddo's, life can change so fast!!